Ending

finished another drama for my lifeless life
no more drama next time
gotta start busy on work
gotta sleep now
but let me write something

i thought there would be sad as the last ending
which is couple leave each other
but after being sad a little while
there is the happy ending in the end

life would be up and down
but it doesn't mean it would be bad in the ending
maybe the bad for now
doesn't mean is the ending
it depends on how much believes in yourself
to want it be an happy ending

tomorrow gotta start work
i promise myself won't be doing sampling girl anymore
it is too lifeless for me
because there is nothing to learn
maybe there is?
gaining muscle of your leg by standing longer
after 3 days of standing
monday will be the day for singapore

so much of curious about what would that be
will i be kidnapped?
will i get raped?
will my arms and legs get chopped off and being selling to other country?
or....
will i be sell it to be a prostitute?
hmm....
you know what
every time when i imagine the things will be like that
it just won't be happen
sometimes it would be
but it is hard
but i think god is always love me though
helped me every time when i need

look back the past..
fighting sales again~~
competition again~~~
i was being lazy such a long time
not even have building good repo with customer
don't even feel like meeting appointment
and people depending on me to do 2k of sales on that day
i met one appointment on that day
used 2-3 hour just to collect some cash on one person
in the end was fail
without any appointment
by wechat and call
collected only 350
50+50+100+150
is already 6pm++
people already collect more than 1k
there is so much expectation on me
in the end i keep on calling and calling
but there is no one
im so afraid that i would be the mouse shit who drag the whole team down
but i keep on call and call
finally there is an appointment for me at 8pm++
but during the appointment i still work very hard
keep calling and calling
whatsapp and messaging
finally there is a lucky star
who i never meet appointment with
we just met once or twice in the mall after he bought things from me
i ask from him without any expectation, just try
he helped me 800 and directly bank in to me
miracles always happen
the appointment that i put so much expectation on
i did not even collect any from them
and in the last minute
i ask another 400 from the same person
he rejected on me in the call
but after 1 ,minutes
i receive a message that i received 400 in my bank account
without any expectation
even though i did not achieve my target
but at least i collected 1.4k on that day though
from that day on
i know god will always pamper for those who really work hard on
don't give up until the last minute, or even last second
if u give up there will be nothing
you don't even try
u won't have any surprises

if i just afraid of being raped, kidnapped, cheat
i won't have any chances
i just want to pray hard and believes
everything will be good and fine
i just want to sing and perform
do not feel like even want to rely on anyone
do not feel want to have any chance or time for myself to think anything
forget the past
forget the thing i'm being annoyed
forget about how much i want him to be mine
forget about whether he is cheating me or not
forget about when i will be official
forget about how much i love him
forget about how bad is him sometime
left the good memories be there
good things always come to u when u not realize




i still not used to sleeping without your arm
i will wait patiently
welcome u whenever u back
r u used to the day without my hug?
no matter how big the world is
true heart always can make things happened
i won't be lazy to miss you


such a disgusting n nauseating things to say
Ewwww.....